STARTING OVER
Today I find myself back at the beginning. Oh I think that sounds a bit too dramatic… maybe I’ll say a change is coming. A new season if you will. God is asking me to change directions. Not for the first time, but hopefully for the last.
You see, I have always, always, always wanted to work for myself. In fact, Pantone has a birthday book where they have a color and brief description for every day of the year, and do you know what my birthday says?
Check that out… “being your own boss is vital to your well-being.” Maybe it’s because we’re commanding? 😂 Who knows? But after 25 jobs in 27 years (relax… there have been more 2 job seasons than I would like to admit), I can confirm this is true. It’s essential for my well-being…
The truth is there was always, always, always a reason not to do that. First, I told myself that it would happen when I got married + had two incomes. It would be easier to start then. More stability, less risk. So I put together a slew of jobs that I didn’t really care that much about (see above for reference) - jobs that met a need while I waited for the right man. I put my dream on hold waiting. Don’t get me wrong, each of those jobs worked for a season (honestly, I’m a GREAT employee + I’ve learned something in each job even if it’s simply what I don’t like), but I leave in the end because they are not what I’ve been dreaming about. They do not fulfill my purpose or soul.
Well, as luck, or God really, would have it, I have yet to meet that man. So at 35, I began to realize that waiting for the right man was not the answer. I had to go for it, but then, the next excuse showed up…
The second excuse? Well this one is hard to admit, but I couldn’t quite put my finger on what kind of business to start. Where to direct my time + energy. There was something the Lord placed in my heart, but I was just not sure I could do it. Not sure what steps to take. How to move forward. I wanted the full picture. To see more of the path than God seemed ready to show me. I was also suffering from a big case of imposter syndrome. Could I really pull it off? Would I be able to make the money I needed to support myself with this? Would anyone actually hire me?
So then I did what made sense, what every book, life coach or well meaning friend tells you to do - I started to look at what I was good at + I looked at what seemed to be working for others + I made a run at a few different businesses. Ones I felt more comfortable with. One of which, you may have guessed from my blog, was home organization.
None of those blog posts are going anywhere, by the way because I do think our homes matter. More on that later. For now, let me just say that here in 2025 God is whispering yet again what He said 7 years ago. That same calling. The thing that scares me. But this time I’m taking each shaky step forward. I hope you’ll follow along on the journey as it unfolds… I have no clue where I’ll end up, but isn’t that the point? The adventure (working hard to reframe that fear!)?
Stay tuned.
XOXO, Kylie